May 7

Back from the vigil
a letter denies the appeal
19 months in jail
for a crime
that did not happen.

I am frozen,
2 days in grief,
puzzlement, Job asking
what else,
what now.

Sleep, weep,
scream, pull out all hair,
swim with sirens luring men
to their watery
deaths.

I am told, as always,
do not take it
personally.
A lesson I have never
learned.